HOLY COW, ONE MORE WEEK OF TRAINING!
Guys its getting more and more real every day. I feel like training is a whirlwind. I have some friends that went through training twice just because they felt like it was beneficial and now that I am nearing the end I can see why! I feel like there is sooo much to take it. I am beyond thankful for this class and the people I have met through this process. Its been sooo neat to have my eyes opened to other single foster moms as well, its wonderful knowing that I am not in this alone (and if you're a single woman considering fostering or currently fostering you are NOT alone).
Tonight was panel night; we had 3 foster moms (one single), a case worker, a bio mom and an attorney. It was a wealth of information, so much information that I just recorded a voice memo so I can go back and listen. I wish I would have recorded the whole panel but I didn't think about it until about halfway through it. It was really neat to see it from the perspective of a mom who has just about reunified with her son and to see how rewarding that can be! When you go into this wanting to adopt I think you can often lose sight of the goal and it truly is to reunify and reconcile these kiddos to their birth parents if at all possible and although that may be hard on you as a foster parent it IS THE GOAL and this is not about me as the foster parent. I know my heart will be broken a few times over but I want to love these kids with all that I have and then some and if that love requires me to let go I have to be ok with it.
As we near the end, I keep telling people that I am excited and terrified all at the same time but I pray that I will parent from the hope and excitement and not the fear. A friend shared this on facebook this week and I felt like it was so appropriate as I get closer to becoming a "mommy for now." My worst fear is having to let go but my best hopes are giving them Jesus and so much love!
Tonight was panel night; we had 3 foster moms (one single), a case worker, a bio mom and an attorney. It was a wealth of information, so much information that I just recorded a voice memo so I can go back and listen. I wish I would have recorded the whole panel but I didn't think about it until about halfway through it. It was really neat to see it from the perspective of a mom who has just about reunified with her son and to see how rewarding that can be! When you go into this wanting to adopt I think you can often lose sight of the goal and it truly is to reunify and reconcile these kiddos to their birth parents if at all possible and although that may be hard on you as a foster parent it IS THE GOAL and this is not about me as the foster parent. I know my heart will be broken a few times over but I want to love these kids with all that I have and then some and if that love requires me to let go I have to be ok with it.
As we near the end, I keep telling people that I am excited and terrified all at the same time but I pray that I will parent from the hope and excitement and not the fear. A friend shared this on facebook this week and I felt like it was so appropriate as I get closer to becoming a "mommy for now." My worst fear is having to let go but my best hopes are giving them Jesus and so much love!
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