Dear little one...
Dear little one,
We still have about a month until we could possibly even meet, yet I think about you and pray for you all the time. With every preparation I think about you, I wonder what you're doing. I wonder how scared you might be at that moment. How confused you might be, because the people who should care about you and love you the most might sometimes forget that you even exist.
Little one, you are so so valuable! You are not an accident! You are worth every sleepless night, every dollar spent and please don't take the things they might be saying to you into your great big heart. You are wanted and you are loved!
This afternoon as I took a toothpick to every nook and cranny while cleaning up your gently used high chair, my heart grew 10x's more for you in that moment. I prayed again for you! I prayed that when you meet me for the first time you will feel safe, you will feel loved and you will feel wanted. Little one, I love you now and always! And the best news is, that there is a great big Jesus who loves you even more than I could ever love you and He wants you to know that He has done everything in His power that you might have the best life! Although it might not seem like it in these first few months or years, you deserve the fullest of life and I pray that I can help you understand that and help you take hold of that for yourself.
Dearest little one, although the amount of time we may have together is uncertain, know that I am doing everything in my power to allow you to be a child, there is no need to worry if you will get to eat today or if your diaper will be changed, sweet sweet child your needs will be met! I will do everything in my power to nurture you and help you heal from the hurt your great big heart feels right now. I will help you navigate your way around this crazy thing we call life. If our time together is short or long, my love for you will only ever increase.
Precious child, the amount of people who are praying for you and for us is so wonderful. There is a saying that people say when talking about raising children and it says "it takes a village" sweetheart, I truly believe that we have one of the best villages to be doing life together right now. People from all over the states are sending YOU gifts already! They know your value, they know your short life so far has been so very hard but they want you to know that they love you and none of this is your fault!
Today I bought some shoes, they are so adorable and while I looked at those tiny shoes I prayed for the steps you will take in life. I prayed that if you take those steps with me or with your biological family I pray that Jesus directs and guides your path. If I am only your "mommy" for a short time I pray that I can instill a love for Jesus that continues in you if/when you leave me. I will always pray for you. I know our time together will not be easy, I know you will have questions that I cannot answer, you will feel feelings that I cannot even begin to imagine but know this, we will get through this together! We will cry together and we will laugh together and I will never stop loving you!
With all my heart,
your biggest cheerleader in life.
We still have about a month until we could possibly even meet, yet I think about you and pray for you all the time. With every preparation I think about you, I wonder what you're doing. I wonder how scared you might be at that moment. How confused you might be, because the people who should care about you and love you the most might sometimes forget that you even exist.
Little one, you are so so valuable! You are not an accident! You are worth every sleepless night, every dollar spent and please don't take the things they might be saying to you into your great big heart. You are wanted and you are loved!
This afternoon as I took a toothpick to every nook and cranny while cleaning up your gently used high chair, my heart grew 10x's more for you in that moment. I prayed again for you! I prayed that when you meet me for the first time you will feel safe, you will feel loved and you will feel wanted. Little one, I love you now and always! And the best news is, that there is a great big Jesus who loves you even more than I could ever love you and He wants you to know that He has done everything in His power that you might have the best life! Although it might not seem like it in these first few months or years, you deserve the fullest of life and I pray that I can help you understand that and help you take hold of that for yourself.
Dearest little one, although the amount of time we may have together is uncertain, know that I am doing everything in my power to allow you to be a child, there is no need to worry if you will get to eat today or if your diaper will be changed, sweet sweet child your needs will be met! I will do everything in my power to nurture you and help you heal from the hurt your great big heart feels right now. I will help you navigate your way around this crazy thing we call life. If our time together is short or long, my love for you will only ever increase.
Precious child, the amount of people who are praying for you and for us is so wonderful. There is a saying that people say when talking about raising children and it says "it takes a village" sweetheart, I truly believe that we have one of the best villages to be doing life together right now. People from all over the states are sending YOU gifts already! They know your value, they know your short life so far has been so very hard but they want you to know that they love you and none of this is your fault!
Today I bought some shoes, they are so adorable and while I looked at those tiny shoes I prayed for the steps you will take in life. I prayed that if you take those steps with me or with your biological family I pray that Jesus directs and guides your path. If I am only your "mommy" for a short time I pray that I can instill a love for Jesus that continues in you if/when you leave me. I will always pray for you. I know our time together will not be easy, I know you will have questions that I cannot answer, you will feel feelings that I cannot even begin to imagine but know this, we will get through this together! We will cry together and we will laugh together and I will never stop loving you!
With all my heart,
your biggest cheerleader in life.
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